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Vol. 54, No. 12, December 2008, pp.1716 - 1717.e5 Copyright © 2008 by The College of Family Physicians of Canada
Infanticide secretsQualitative study on postpartum depressionJennieffer A. Barr, DHScPostgraduate Coordinator of Womens Health for the Faculty of Health and Chair of the Board for Womens Health at Queensland University of Technology in Brisbane, Australia
Cheryl T. Beck, CNM MSN DNSc
Correspondence: Dr Jennieffer Barr, Queensland University of Technology, Faculty of Health, Victoria Park Rd, Kelvin Grove, Brisbane, Queensland 4519, Australia; telephone 07 31385951; fax 07 31383814; e-mail j.barr{at}qut.edu.au Infanticide is the term used to denote child murder in the first year of life.1 Denial of pregnancy and a period of psychosis appear to be strongly associated with the act of killing ones infant.1,2 Adolescent mothers who have a history of mental illness are more likely to kill their infants than mothers 25 years of age or older are.3,4 Chronic mental illness, such as a history of schizophrenia, is a substantial risk factor for infanticide.5 A pattern of delusions that leads to the mothers feeling suspicious and having homicidal thoughts (controlled by outside forces or where the infant is seen as the devil incarnate) is of particular concern.2 Hallucinations often involve themes about death, particularly of the infant.2 Delusional altruistic homicide—where the mother aims to save someone from the "evil" infant or to spare the suffering of the infant (as well as herself) due to the lack of hope—that might include an associated parental suicide attempt has been noted as significant.3 Mothers with no psychotic symptoms have a lower risk of acting on their thoughts to harm their infants.6 Abuse-related infanticide, however, has predictable and identified patterns of increased risk of death by homicide at demanding times of the day, like mealtimes and bedtime. These times appear to be associated with impulse killings.7,8 Fortunately, it is rare for mothers to kill their infants.9 In addition to the concern that mothers might act on their thoughts of harming their infants, however, the suffering of these women is also worthy of attention. Little is known about the characteristics of infanticidal thoughts when the mother has no intent to act. This project was implemented to contribute to the current body of knowledge by examining the characteristics of infanticidal thoughts experienced by women with postpartum depression.
Study design In-depth interviews were conducted and audiotaped in this hermeneutic study. Theories of hermeneutics10 argue that to obtain a true interpretation of an experience, one must obtain the meaning through those that have lived such an experience. The researcher must continually question the evolving interpretation in order to present an accurate picture of someone elses experience.
Ethics
Setting, sample, and data collection At a single recruiting site—a community support group that was associated with the first project—a snowballing recruiting technique was used. This technique was successful once the women starting telling each other that the researchers could be trusted. Eighteen women expressed interest in the project. The first phase involved confirming the diagnoses of depression with postpartum onset, as some time had passed since the original diagnoses. Of the 18 women, 2 were noted to have obsessive-compulsive disorder and were therefore excluded. Another woman was found on the day of her interview to have psychosis and was also excluded. All 3 of these women, however, were offered the opportunity to "tell their story" for ethical reasons. Women continued to be recruited until analysis was no longer producing new themes (saturation), resulting in a sample size of 15 women. Qualitative studies must have small sample sizes in order to obtain the desired depth of information shared by the participants.12 The women who participated in the study were between 20 and 34 years of age. Some additional participant characteristics are presented in Table 1. The duration of the current episodes of depression from the first clinical diagnoses ranged from 2 to 11.5 months.
The first 2 interviews were used as pilots to refine the interview question. Asking a direct question about infanticide did not produce the necessary rapport or create an environment of trust, resulting in minimal depth to the data. Therefore, the question was refined, and subsequent interviews commenced successfully with "Can you tell me about the distress you felt having postpartum depression?"
Data analysis After the interviews were completed and transcribed, the researchers had to become familiar with the stories from the participants by reading and rereading the transcripts of each story. Words and phrases that appeared to be important within the story were highlighted. These data were clustered to become units of meaning, then given a name that described the meaning. Similar units of meaning were compared or were contrasted until the researcher noted patterns within the data. Once there were enough data to confirm a particular unit of meaning, the hermeneutic circle10 was implemented. The researchers purposively returned to their previous assumptions (prejudices) to compare that personal knowledge and understanding with the new conclusion. The researchers adopted a cynical and questioning stance and challenged the new units of meaning to evaluate whether they were the same as or different than the prejudices. When the units of meaning did not have sufficient evidence to confirm the suggested meaning, then the researcher re-engaged with the raw data and began the process again. Once the evidence confirmed a unit of meaning, then the researchers applied the hermeneutic circle, which is used to compare an aspect of a story (part) to the entire story (whole) in order to ensure that the part "fits" with the whole account as told by the research participant. This process was facilitated by the use of journals. Frameworks for evaluating truthful and authentic findings of qualitative studies were used.14–17 This included attending to personal and professional biases that could influence the interpretation. Also, 2 women with past experiences of infanticidal thoughts who were not participants of the study critiqued the analysis and confirmed that they could relate to the descriptions and that the interpretations were plausible, thus demonstrating transferability.
Six themes emerged from the interviews.
Imagined acts of infanticide
The experience of horror It is shocking really, wishing he was dead. Sometimes I would imagine things as I do things. I do a lot of things in the microwave, reheating things up, and I would suddenly stop seeing the food and see the baby going into the microwave, or I would be bathing him and realize how easy it would be to push him under the water. I used to have this overwhelming feeling of wanting to push something over his face as he screams. Shocking, isnt it?
Distorted sense of responsibility I worried about the baby, as he was only 3 months old. Far too young to be left without a mother. So I use to plan the suicide and intended to take him with me. I believed that he was my responsibility and he would be disadvantaged by not having a mother, so it was better to take him with me. Julie too felt this form of responsibility. There were times when I thought I was such a terrible mother that he would be better off without me, and so I imagined him with someone else; and there were times when I thought that I would have to take him with me. I felt that it wasnt fair on [the baby] to have a terrible mother, but it also wasnt fair on him not to have a mother. And so, to take him with me was the only option.
Consuming negativity You are so angry its like a rage, its all consuming, like a furry, like a volcano, you know, when it erupts. You feel like the lava as it starts at your feet and flows through your veins, rushing, and you cant stop it. Its so frightening and you cant stop it. Grave consequences of such anger could have resulted for some of the participants, especially when the anger was directed at the babies. Julies baby would not stop crying. She acted spontaneously: The way I felt about [the baby], the frustration, I could have strangled him at times [pause]. I put a teddy bear over him and could have easily suffocated him [pause]. I dont know, maybe I meant to [pause]. How can I tell him [looking toward her husband who is outside] that? What sort of a person would he think I was? [She begins to cry.] The baby ceased crying, and Julie said she "snapped out of it" and gave the baby mouth-to-mouth resuscitation for a brief period. She did not know if he was breathing or not when she commenced resuscitation.
Keeping secrets According to Jill, she never told any health professional about her thoughts of infanticide. This is what she said about a recent episode: I had suicidal thoughts and plans for 3 weeks. I would think about it all day and I knew that was bad. I couldnt think what to do with the baby and so I thought I had to take the baby with me. Suddenly I knew there was something wrong with that picture. I knew I had to do something. But you know, you dont come straight out with it to your GP or your psychiatrist. I just say things are bad. Kate provided a plausible reason for keeping such secrets: How I imagined hurting the baby was awful ... you really dont want anyone to know ... if they did they would want to put you away or take the baby away [pause]. I mean to say, why would you leave a baby with a mother who is thinking about putting him in a microwave. I used to see, in my mind, a pillow going over his head. So easy ... the doctor says its only thoughts. I get that, but what sort of a person am I even to imagine such things? ... I have cried and cried over this [pause]. It was easier when I was numb and didnt feel at all. At least I didnt have these awful thoughts. Sue said how easy it is for health professionals to assume you are suicidal: My GP and psychologist always know when things are bad, as they ask me if I am going to harm myself. I always tell the truth as I trust them, you know. But dont tell them the whole truth. They change my medication so that helps my thoughts about the baby anyway.
Managing the crisis They were that he would not be damaged, hed be normal, and he wouldnt get hurt, because as a mum you feel like youve achieved nothing, so I could say he wasnt hurt today and so I had met a goal. Some of the women found it helpful to avoid or use distraction when thoughts of harming the baby occurred. As Joy said: After a while you know you are not going to do anything. You kind of get use to them, even though I still feel guilty [pause] and ashamed [pause] I dont feel so afraid anymore. I just try to think of something else, you know, if I cant sleep and they pop into my head I then get up and watch the [television].
Momentary but recurring obsessional thoughts of harm to an infant, such as those described in this paper, are commonly experienced by depressed mothers.6,18 In many cases, the infants of nonpsychotic depressed mothers might not be at any increased risk of harm compared with those infants of women who are not depressed, even if the women are experiencing obsessional thoughts about their infants.6 However, a health assessment to confirm that there is no presence of psychotic symptoms (like a delusional system) or at-risk behaviour (like caregiving failure or neglect) is advised, as these have been previously identified as potentially harmful.6,18 Feelings of disgust and guilt about having such thoughts are common in women who have depression.6 Greenland19 claims that even those with the urge to kill or to severely injure family members likely also feel the opposite urge of restraint. Greenland does warn that this conclusion is dependent on anecdotal reports; but research conducted in this area to confirm or discount such a claim would be difficult. Our study validates that women experiencing thoughts of infanticide might come to realize that they need to seek help. Seeking behaviour has previously been noted as important.19 The findings of this project provide some insight into how women with depression who have infanticidal thoughts might seek help, such as sharing with a health professional that they are feeling suicidal not that they are experiencing infanticidal thoughts. Our finding that women did not mention thoughts of infanticide to health professionals has also been noted by Meyer and Spinelli.5 When infanticide has occurred, nearly half the parents had recently visited medical professionals. Therefore, when suicidal thoughts are mentioned, health professionals should probe further for the possibility of thoughts of infanticide. We suggest that health professionals use direct but sensitive questioning about harm of self and baby, including questions about hoping that the baby dies, regardless of the reason why mothers have presented.6
Limitations Additionally, large studies to determine the prevalence of these types of thoughts would be useful. Unfortunately, such large studies might not be feasible, considering the sensitive nature of these thoughts and the trust issues that these women experience. Studies that explore descriptions of such thoughts from different cultural perspectives will also be necessary.
Conclusion
This article has been peer reviewed. *Full text is available in English at www.cfp.ca. Drs Barr and Beck contributed to concept and design of the study; data gathering, analysis, and interpretation; and preparing the manuscript for submission. None declared
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